Hi to all - so many times as I'm in chat I think I'm hearing variations of / on my life story and it's all I can do to keep from projecting my what - unfinished business re a step..?
the EX-a factor comes up so many times - and I have a whole bucket full of ex-A-s and some as yet attached to me, in that they refuse to go alanon.
My last ex-s are both ten and five years apart - a six month interlude between the two and I did not know eiher before meeting the other, yet the A-codes were present in both for me to fix...
One I met on line at a dating site. The other via school. There are kids ( step kids ) with the first I do stay in touch with and that ex thinks my notes to them are a come on to him. The shrink who we were seeing says to me on our last meeting that he is immature. So I move on.
Enter ex # whatever and of course its 'o m g I'm ovulatingly in love within ur presence babe' and keep that information to myself, until one day, and I said what was on my mind and kudos 2 me 4 being that mature, to give us time 'to build a relationship' first.
Now its over - due to our a-families - we are acoa babies. He kept pulling me back in like I was a yo-yo and I was done - the $$, broken promises the i'm not sure, etc and the bla bla blas. So yeah - I am done. It almost cost me everything; however, I've got me back and am working to make me over via reinventing myself and turning a few heads with their 'you can not do that.'
The ending of the last one took an enormous effort, I did all the letting go techniques I could think of, until his last email to me. I responded with, an e-gun and said I shot us and now we are no more - that we are dead or so on. He got the message then to stop the yo-yo game. I am not a video game - there is no alt control delete buttons on me - I have searched myself from head to toe and I do not think I have found a single button that would indicate he could do that to me, or that is what I am looking for in a dude. I do my best to not use poeple as a toy, I cherish life, and by the same token, realize it is a struggle. For that reason, I shall not make amends to this human in 'that harm to self or others' clause so neatly written into the program.
Whew - oceans of love to all y'all as one user here loves to say! Love in recovery 2 y'all " juggle " getoverit
Blessed said
Jun 24, 2007
Get over it!
Addiction runs in so many forms. When I am reminded of the insanity like your sharing here "Getoverit." In hind sight my memorie triggers many addictions and control mechanisms trying to change me. Why? It doesn't matter anyway. it has never made a difference before.
I have made ammends to everyone on my Step work I have ever harmed. I am the personality that hates uncovered sin, unresolved issues, bitterness, anger, blame, shame. I want to always take care of my side of the street so that I can stand before God clean and Forgiven if I died this moment.
Love <>< Blessed
risiris571 said
Feb 16, 2023
I have not been addicted to any substances for a long time! I take care of myself, regularly attend training and salons. https://fivestarlaserspa.com/
Hi to all - so many times as I'm in chat I think I'm
hearing variations of / on my life story and it's all
I can do to keep from projecting my what - unfinished
business re a step..?
the EX-a factor comes up so many times - and I have
a whole bucket full of ex-A-s and some as yet attached
to me, in that they refuse to go alanon.
My last ex-s are both ten and five years apart - a six
month interlude between the two and I did not know
eiher before meeting the other, yet the A-codes were
present in both for me to fix...
One I met on line at a dating site. The other via
school. There are kids ( step kids ) with the first I
do stay in touch with and that ex thinks my notes
to them are a come on to him. The shrink who we
were seeing says to me on our last meeting that
he is immature. So I move on.
Enter ex # whatever and of course its 'o m g I'm
ovulatingly in love within ur presence babe' and keep
that information to myself, until one day, and I said
what was on my mind and kudos 2 me 4 being that
mature, to give us time 'to build a relationship' first.
Now its over - due to our a-families - we are acoa
babies. He kept pulling me back in like I was a yo-yo
and I was done - the $$, broken promises the i'm not
sure, etc and the bla bla blas. So yeah - I am done. It
almost cost me everything; however, I've got me back
and am working to make me over via reinventing myself
and turning a few heads with their 'you can not do that.'
The ending of the last one took an enormous effort,
I did all the letting go techniques I could think of,
until his last email to me. I responded with, an e-gun
and said I shot us and now we are no more - that we
are dead or so on. He got the message then to stop
the yo-yo game. I am not a video game - there is no
alt control delete buttons on me - I have searched myself
from head to toe and I do not think I have found a single
button that would indicate he could do that to me, or that
is what I am looking for in a dude. I do my best to not
use poeple as a toy, I cherish life, and by the same
token, realize it is a struggle. For that reason, I shall not
make amends to this human in 'that harm to self or others' clause
so neatly written into the program.
Whew - oceans of love to all y'all as one user here loves to say!
Love in recovery 2 y'all
" juggle "
getoverit
Addiction runs in so many forms. When I am reminded of the insanity like your sharing here "Getoverit." In hind sight my memorie triggers many addictions and control mechanisms trying to change me. Why? It doesn't matter anyway. it has never made a difference before.
I have made ammends to everyone on my Step work I have ever harmed. I am the personality that hates uncovered sin, unresolved issues, bitterness, anger, blame, shame. I want to always take care of my side of the street so that I can stand before God clean and Forgiven if I died this moment.
Love <><
Blessed
I have not been addicted to any substances for a long time! I take care of myself, regularly attend training and salons. https://fivestarlaserspa.com/