I am so greatful for tonite's meeting.. I am greatful for all y'all's being there "hugs" I am greatful for learning the codes of the smiley faces and of the ethics I've found here and shared with one another as I take the journey to get over the a conditioning.
Tonite, I went on a safari with a person from my past conditioning and co acoaer, my sis. She is trying to ooh and ahh me since dragging my butt down to this little control spot 'close to home' and yet far enough away that I can not walk to anywhere, and am somewhat dependent on her for transportation - bla bla bla.. in step the three c-s for me. Recently I am released from the hospital and am recovering from interesting wounds that I need to stay rather centered on myself and my peace of mind to work on healing me. So I do distance me from them via the 3 c-s, I've offered the alanon way to the family a multiple number of times and change - yea yea yea.. I know, I faced that I need to get over myself and my multi- generational belief system and respect we are all doing the best we can.
Tonight, however, was kind of different in that she starts to poor me me re my tx and that I need to go to her agency to be more fully better tx'd and she has access to everyone's files there re anything. I'm like nope - in step the three c-s - I am staying put where I am. She called me a couple family names we used to draw blood over while we were growing up and yep - u guessed it in step the three c-s!
I really feel sorry for her. Their ( my family ) act out the a conditioned acoa behavior in their own way, control - drugs - fixing rescuing others - food - their god is better than my God - my god is chi energy and its difficult to put a label on love energy, except that it is so, and it is real. I kept surrounding her in it as we went along.. me thinking I needed to walk home, except she has her cell phone and that would be the end of that. So again, in step the three c-s and knowing her 991 help me - wild man on da loose - lol - he trying to get away from me... lol
What oh what are the three c-s - cause create control the scene that is unfolding before my eyes/ears/mind n as such I do not have to go jumping off into it with anyone. No more merry-go-round called denial for me. I got the message - out of control - its time to hang up the phone. She threatens to call adult protective services on me. One of our talented guests here loves the phrase 'well, how does that make you feel?' And I so dearly love that idea, well, well well.. She leaves saying she will be back tomorrow to take me somewhere. I feel in my heart to say 'no' is best.
I do appreciate her for looking out for me, however, I do not need another case manager for goodness sakes. My case manager is coming over monday to take me around to do my thing, speaking of the 3 c-s and I'm making arrangements with dial a ride to get around and loosening the hold I feel is unhealthy. I am so greatful for here and for y'all (((( hugs ))))
The kids blew the engine in my car when I was in the hospital - its all I can do to not go legal on them, no pay after promises to - and here comes the 3 c-s to my rescuing my serenity. The kids are coded just as similarly as moi... lol - three names she calls me tonite - lol - and its not even a full moon and here comes them 3 c-s - poof - the past is gone... I sure love y'all and happy holiday stuff to y'all as well, eh? getoverit
Blessed said
Jun 25, 2007
Hello Everyone,
Working in the Jewelry business the only time I have ever heard of the C's being used in any form is, Cut, Color, Clarity and Carat weight. This reading is a reminder of family interferrance in my own life daily if I let them. I hang up the phone on a regular basis because they are all hateful towards me.
I am still working on me so that I can be Healthy enough to handle life on life's terms.
I Love all the members of my family.They want to fight over the Love, acceptance, and so on in our parent's lives. I just want to be left alone and Love everyone and stay on the right track.
Parent's that tell you to your face you are the favorite, the others are rotten, liars, thiefs, so on. Is the most aweful dysfunctional thing any child/person could here. When you are a witness to Man's hippocrisy in life. It is painful! Even if it is true, you don't tell your friends, children, or parent's that!
The way I can handle everyone else is not to handle everyone else. "Let Go and Let God" handle them. He is ALL POWERFUL, ALL KNOWING, EVERYWHERE AT ONE TIME. Thank you Lord!
This is where God comes in. I remember back when I had to Let my family go Get them out of my life or remain sick or worse die, physically, mentally, and spiritually myself. I am so HAPPY I chose GOd's unknown Way. I was in pain, unsure, but it is still worth stepping out in FAITH.
I have a life today that is clean and I Walk by Faith today. I am married to a terrific guy, without a job right now, going into our 4th month soon, we are out of debt except our home, both of us are Sober, we both have Health problems, BUT we have a God that we Love and we know that Loves us. We call on him and call him Jesus Christ. "WE CAN TRUST HIM" we will be alright.
God has wonderful plans for all of us in our FUTURE. I am his Creation, I don't believe we will fall on our face.
Please "PRAY FOR US" for a LOCAL GOOD JOB for my husband.
Thanks for letting me share from my Heart to yours.
Love BLessed
Love,
Blessed
I am so greatful for tonite's meeting.. I
am greatful for all y'all's being there
"hugs"
I am greatful for learning the codes
of the smiley faces and of the ethics
I've found here and shared with one
another as I take the journey to get
over the a conditioning.
Tonite, I went on a safari with a person
from my past conditioning and co acoaer, my
sis. She is trying to ooh and ahh me since
dragging my butt down to this little control
spot 'close to home' and yet far enough away
that I can not walk to anywhere, and am somewhat
dependent on her for transportation - bla bla
bla.. in step the three c-s for me.
Recently I am released from the hospital and
am recovering from interesting wounds that I
need to stay rather centered on myself and my
peace of mind to work on healing me. So I do
distance me from them via the 3 c-s, I've offered
the alanon way to the family a multiple number of
times and change - yea yea yea.. I know, I faced
that I need to get over myself and my multi-
generational belief system and respect we are all doing the best we can.
Tonight, however, was kind of different in that she starts to poor me me re my tx and that I need to go to her agency to be more fully better tx'd and she has access to everyone's files there re anything. I'm like nope - in step the three c-s - I am staying put where I am. She called me a couple family names we used to draw blood over while we were growing up and yep - u guessed it in step the three c-s!
I really feel sorry for her. Their ( my family ) act out the a conditioned acoa behavior in their own way, control - drugs - fixing rescuing others - food - their god is better than my God - my god is chi energy and its difficult to put a label on love energy, except that it is so, and it is real. I kept surrounding her in it as we went along.. me thinking I needed to walk home, except she has her cell phone and that would be the end of that. So again, in step the three c-s and knowing her 991 help me - wild man on da loose - lol - he trying to get away from me... lol
What oh what are the three c-s - cause create control the scene that is unfolding before my eyes/ears/mind n as such I do not have to go jumping off into it with anyone. No more merry-go-round called denial for me. I got the message - out of control - its time to hang up the phone. She threatens to call adult protective services on me. One of our talented guests here loves the phrase 'well, how does that make you feel?' And I so dearly love that idea, well, well well.. She leaves saying she will be back tomorrow to take me somewhere. I feel in my heart to say 'no' is best.
I do appreciate her for looking out for me, however, I do not need another case manager for goodness sakes. My case manager is coming over monday to take me around to do my thing, speaking of the 3 c-s and I'm making arrangements with dial a ride to get around and loosening the hold I feel is unhealthy. I am so greatful for here and for y'all (((( hugs ))))
The kids blew the engine in my car when I was in the hospital - its all I can do to not go legal on them, no pay after promises to - and here comes the 3 c-s to my rescuing my serenity. The kids are coded just as similarly as moi... lol - three names she calls me tonite - lol - and its not even a full moon and here comes them 3 c-s - poof - the past is gone...
I sure love y'all
and happy holiday stuff to y'all as well, eh?
getoverit