Hello, I am new to this. I have been sober for 2 days. I am on steps one and two. One is easy for me, although it wasn't for the past few years, it is now. I get it, I am an alcoholic and my life is unmanageable especially in the area of alcohol. Step two should be easy for me, but believe it or not, I am stumbling. I realized I was stumbling on this when I tried to go straight to step three, being a Christian and knowing in my head the the Lord helps us in time of need etc....however, when I got to step three I realized that I AM stumbling on 2.
2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
I have lost some of my faith in the last year since my mother has died. I haven't been to church since she died. A big part of it is because I've been hungover every single sunday since, but I think another part is just losing my faith in him. So, I'm going to be doing some bible studies, talking some on here about this and really allowing this idea that God(my higher power), can restore me to sanity. I need to know that in my heart as well as in my head before I can honestly do step three. So, does this mean I'm on stuck on 2 and 3, or do move ahead a bit while I work on these two steps? Any input would be greatly appreciated. Yes, I know I need a Big Book, and I'm trying to find mine from years and years ago. On friday when we get paid, I'll buy one if I haven't found mine.
danielle72 said
Jul 28, 2010
I appologize, I wrote my post before I read the Format.
tlcate said
Jul 28, 2010
No worries. I believe you found the AA site. Feel free to visit anytime with your ES&H around the steps! We would love to hear it.
For me, in the beginnning I just had to be willing and let go for steps 1-3 and then after my first round of the entire 12 steps I had more answers to steps 1-3 and find myself going back to them daily.
I had a bit of a panic at first wondering if I could wrap my brain around the deep concepts of the first 3 steps as I am agnostic . . . I guess LOL . . . but I didn't. I just became willing . . . and then kept moving forward.
Hope that helps! Please keep coming back.
tlc
danielle72 said
Jul 29, 2010
What is ES&H?
tlcate said
Jul 30, 2010
Experience, Strength & Hope.
We try to not give "advice" but share what it was like for us, what happened, and what it is like now that we are in recovery.
It is a powerful form of communication. It helps each of us not feel judged, lets us know that who is sharing has experienced what we have, and shows us really good life examples of how the program has worked for us. . . and that there is hope.
Please keep coming back!
Tricia
-- Edited by tlcate on Friday 30th of July 2010 01:55:07 AM
2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
I have lost some of my faith in the last year since my mother has died. I haven't been to church since she died. A big part of it is because I've been hungover every single sunday since, but I think another part is just losing my faith in him. So, I'm going to be doing some bible studies, talking some on here about this and really allowing this idea that God(my higher power), can restore me to sanity. I need to know that in my heart as well as in my head before I can honestly do step three. So, does this mean I'm on stuck on 2 and 3, or do move ahead a bit while I work on these two steps? Any input would be greatly appreciated. Yes, I know I need a Big Book, and I'm trying to find mine from years and years ago. On friday when we get paid, I'll buy one if I haven't found mine.
For me, in the beginnning I just had to be willing and let go for steps 1-3 and then after my first round of the entire 12 steps I had more answers to steps 1-3 and find myself going back to them daily.
I had a bit of a panic at first wondering if I could wrap my brain around the deep concepts of the first 3 steps as I am agnostic . . . I guess LOL . . . but I didn't. I just became willing . . . and then kept moving forward.
Hope that helps! Please keep coming back.
tlc
We try to not give "advice" but share what it was like for us, what happened, and what it is like now that we are in recovery.
It is a powerful form of communication. It helps each of us not feel judged, lets us know that who is sharing has experienced what we have, and shows us really good life examples of how the program has worked for us. . . and that there is hope.
Please keep coming back!
Tricia
-- Edited by tlcate on Friday 30th of July 2010 01:55:07 AM