Step five:" admitted to God to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs
C2C reading page 50: I am learning the nature of my nature by working the 12 steps. . I trust that I will uncover what I need to know for now and uncover the remaining in time. I am learning"that as I keep working the steps I am demonstrating a willingness to change"
My share : I have completed many Step 5s during the course of my many years in program. I must admit that the first was the most difficult as I was not familiar with looking at myself with such honesty and an open mind, thanks to program I have developed both and readily approach this step to uncover the negative tools that I still implement an living life.. i also found that the exact nature of y wrongs was that i thought myself perfect and everyone else at fault --- Not so as I look deeply at my motives.
Step5 5 questions
Have I completed my fourth step and learned about sharing my past ?
What area of life can I be honest?
What are the advantages I might achieve in admitting my faults?
Do I understand the healing admitting my faults can bring?
What expectations do I have about how I should feel or what I should experience what I meant my thoughts?
Am I afraid to live by. the program?
Can I call a alanon friend for support/t?
Do I see I am not perfect?
newnoz said
May 8, 2019
Step five:" admitted to God to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs
Step 5 questions
Have I completed my fourth step and learned about sharing my past? No, but I am about half way through the Blueprint workbook.
What area of life can I be honest? I can be honest in any area of my life that I have examined and come to terms with. I also need to feel supported rather than judged. most of the judgment comes from me.
What are the advantages I might achieve in admitting my faults? Leaving them behind would be nice but I don't know when that would happen, It is in my HP's time and not mine. It is great to feel strong enough to admit mistakes. I am not sure if I so much lose my faults and let them go. Still researching that one. Perhaps I only lose my belief that the behaviour gets me something I need.
Do I understand the healing admitting my faults can bring? Not sure. When, like today, I just feel generally unhappy about my behaviour I can only recall the times I was able to say I am sorry in a meaningful way. I want to do that.
What expectations do I have about how I should feel or what I should experience what I meant my thoughts? Expectations? Premeditated resentment, you mean? I know I will think thoughts that are horrible as well as neutral or nice ones. I just work on not acting on them. I try to accept my feelings though right now they seem jumbled. This too shall pass.
Am I afraid to live by the program? I am afraid to live period And I am going to keep living so I appreciate life when I can get it right. I just don't expect me to get it right. I wish I could get to a point of thinking I get it OK most of the time. I am angry with myself because I have been so awful at times. I will get to self-compassion. I am very much afraid of losing the people in my life for I have spent most of my life in isolation.
Can I call an Al-Anon friend for support? Sometimes. And sometimes I can't force myself to do it. Progress is being made but I take those little steps.
Do I see I am not perfect? Yes, and I see I am not totally imperfect either. I am trying for human now which is mostly shades of grey. I have a book named the perfection of imperfection in my library. Someday I will finish reading it.
Thank you, Betty, for posting this and Thank you to the group for being here.
Love, Nora G
hotrod said
May 8, 2019
Thank you NOra for sharing your honest thoughts on this powerful Step. I found that once I exhibited the courage to do this step, program felt so much easier keep on keeping on
My share : I have completed many Step 5s during the course of my many years in program. I must admit that the first was the most difficult as I was not familiar with looking at myself with such honesty and an open mind, thanks to program I have developed both and readily approach this step to uncover the negative tools that I still implement an living life.. i also found that the exact nature of y wrongs was that i thought myself perfect and everyone else at fault --- Not so as I look deeply at my motives.
Step5 5 questions
What area of life can I be honest?
Step five:" admitted to God to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs
Step 5 questions
Have I completed my fourth step and learned about sharing my past?
No, but I am about half way through the Blueprint workbook.
What area of life can I be honest?
I can be honest in any area of my life that I have examined and come to terms with. I also need to feel supported rather than judged. most of the judgment comes from me.
What are the advantages I might achieve in admitting my faults?
Leaving them behind would be nice but I don't know when that would happen, It is in my HP's time and not mine. It is great to feel strong enough to admit mistakes. I am not sure if I so much lose my faults and let them go. Still researching that one. Perhaps I only lose my belief that the behaviour gets me something I need.
Do I understand the healing admitting my faults can bring?
Not sure. When, like today, I just feel generally unhappy about my behaviour I can only recall the times I was able to say I am sorry in a meaningful way. I want to do that.
What expectations do I have about how I should feel or what I should experience what I meant my thoughts?
Expectations? Premeditated resentment, you mean? I know I will think thoughts that are horrible as well as neutral or nice ones. I just work on not acting on them. I try to accept my feelings though right now they seem jumbled. This too shall pass.
Am I afraid to live by the program?
I am afraid to live period And I am going to keep living so I appreciate life when I can get it right. I just don't expect me to get it right. I wish I could get to a point of thinking I get it OK most of the time. I am angry with myself because I have been so awful at times. I will get to self-compassion. I am very much afraid of losing the people in my life for I have spent most of my life in isolation.
Can I call an Al-Anon friend for support?
Sometimes. And sometimes I can't force myself to do it. Progress is being made but I take those little steps.
Do I see I am not perfect?
Yes, and I see I am not totally imperfect either. I am trying for human now which is mostly shades of grey. I have a book named the perfection of imperfection in my library. Someday I will finish reading it.
Thank you, Betty, for posting this and Thank you to the group for being here.
Love, Nora G