I admit I am powerless over drinking and that my life has become unmanageable because of it. I admit I am powerless over other people's decisions, the only power I have is on my own life and the choices I am to make and not to impose them over anyone else. I admit that I am fearful over being powerless on my alcoholism. Now, I have chosen to do what is best for me... to take control over my life ... to give up the bottle.
Step 2
Yesterday, I asked my creator to help me with the courage to make it through this. And, being an aboriginal ... I seen a vision. Yesterday, an eagle flew over my head in my backyard. I ran inside to read my traditional book for the meanings of animals. The eagle represents new vision, a connection to the creator... guidance from the creator. Yesterday, seeing that eagle meant to me that the creator is willing to help me gain back my sanity... gain back my power. It was something so beautiful that gave me the courage to know that I will conquer and I will get my life back. I am already on track, I have admitted I am powerless... I have admitted I have an alcohol addiction. I am seeking help and support ... not only from people, but the creator himself.
Candace
sweetpea said
Apr 15, 2006
Dear Candace, Welcome to a better way of life. I had to see my baby drunk yesterday she is 17. I know that my drinking has hurt her so deeply that she now drinks too. I tell you it is the hardest thing to know that I am responsible for not getting help a long time ago. Maybe my baby would have had a better life. I know she would have!!! I am in recovery now and I pray that my higher power I call him GOD. will keep me on the right path. I go to as many meetings as possible and I am practicing the steps in my life. Today I will try to get my daughter to a meeting. Stick with it Candace you don't want to feel what I am today. I will pray for you and your child that you may have a better life.
God Bless
amanda2u2 said
Apr 15, 2006
Hi, you two... just a short post ... I am also a mixed blood American Indian... and that eagle is a great sign!!
I had to watch my child go through his alcoholism too... and I know what a heartache that is when we feel some guilt especially.
more later,
love in recovery,
amanda
Candace said
Apr 16, 2006
Hi sweatpea,
that's one of the main reasons why I decided it was time to quit -- I looked at my 15 month girl and I just couldn't do it anymore. I grew up in an alcoholic home also and I remember when my mom used to take off on us-- and here I was later in life -- starting to do the same thing. It made me feel down right depressed and guilty -- so I decided enough is enough -- I want her to have a better life and I want a better life. I want her to look up to me and be proud of who I am. And hopefully, by me making the right choices -- she won't have to go through what I did. She may still fall in the trap but atleast I will know in the future I did give it all my best.
I admit I am powerless over drinking and that my life has become unmanageable because of it. I admit I am powerless over other people's decisions, the only power I have is on my own life and the choices I am to make and not to impose them over anyone else. I admit that I am fearful over being powerless on my alcoholism. Now, I have chosen to do what is best for me... to take control over my life ... to give up the bottle.
Step 2
Yesterday, I asked my creator to help me with the courage to make it through this. And, being an aboriginal ... I seen a vision. Yesterday, an eagle flew over my head in my backyard. I ran inside to read my traditional book for the meanings of animals. The eagle represents new vision, a connection to the creator... guidance from the creator. Yesterday, seeing that eagle meant to me that the creator is willing to help me gain back my sanity... gain back my power. It was something so beautiful that gave me the courage to know that I will conquer and I will get my life back. I am already on track, I have admitted I am powerless... I have admitted I have an alcohol addiction. I am seeking help and support ... not only from people, but the creator himself.
Candace
Dear Candace, Welcome to a better way of life. I had to see my baby drunk yesterday she is 17. I know that my drinking has hurt her so deeply that she now drinks too. I tell you it is the hardest thing to know that I am responsible for not getting help a long time ago. Maybe my baby would have had a better life. I know she would have!!! I am in recovery now and I pray that my higher power I call him GOD. will keep me on the right path. I go to as many meetings as possible and I am practicing the steps in my life. Today I will try to get my daughter to a meeting. Stick with it Candace you don't want to feel what I am today. I will pray for you and your child that you may have a better life.
God Bless
Hi, you two... just a short post ... I am also a mixed blood American Indian... and that eagle is a great sign!!
I had to watch my child go through his alcoholism too... and I know what a heartache that is when we feel some guilt especially.
more later,
love in recovery,
amanda
Hi sweatpea,
that's one of the main reasons why I decided it was time to quit -- I looked at my 15 month girl and I just couldn't do it anymore. I grew up in an alcoholic home also and I remember when my mom used to take off on us-- and here I was later in life -- starting to do the same thing. It made me feel down right depressed and guilty -- so I decided enough is enough -- I want her to have a better life and I want a better life. I want her to look up to me and be proud of who I am. And hopefully, by me making the right choices -- she won't have to go through what I did. She may still fall in the trap but atleast I will know in the future I did give it all my best.
Candace