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fairymom44


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Hello,
I am a mother of two kids an am admitting today that I am an alcoholic.
I cringe as I write the ugly truth of the state of mind I am in.
I lost my mother/ my best friend last May and have found that my occasional glass of wine has become a nightly habit.
I find that I am becoming more and more fixated when my bottle runs out the day before..."When can I get the next? Should I go to the local liquor store again or maybe this time another store so it won't appear that I have a problem.
If I drink red wine I am doing a good thing for my body because...blah, blah, blah.
It is one excuse after another. The truth is that I am hiding from my emotions. I have no creative outlet for the pain, hurt and disappointment  I feel on a daily basis. I take the cowards way out by drinking it all away. I have no energy, to feel much of anything. When I do start to feel, I shut down and carry on as if nothing is wrong. I drink it all away....
My daughter locks herself in her room at night when my wine glass shows it's ugly face . It hurts me to think that this has just become the norm for her in her young teenage life.
My son asked me the other day if he could have a drink of my wine (he is only 10). How can I look him in the eye and tell him that it is bad for you when he sees me drinking it nightly.
It stops for today...One day at a time...
Thanks for listening.

Fairymom44

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tlcate


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Welcome to MIP!  You might find the AA board a little more helpful and responsive as this is a board simply for the discussion of the steps.  Click on the Miracles In Progress logo above and find the AA board.  They are a WONDERFUL group of folks (if you haven't already).

That said, I know exactly where you are.  I remember the guilt and embarrassment, but also the relief of finally raising my hand and announcing I was an alcoholic.  Now it is time to get to work on your sobriety, One Day at a Time.  Visit the AA board, get to some meetings if you can, find a sponsor, work the steps - and the promises offered in AA will come true.  It is simple, though not always easy.  It is a wonderful family who understands EXACTLY where you are and WANT you to get and stay sober - but even more - live a better life and let go of the pain you carry and drown in alcohol.

We get it.  We are here for you.  Hopefully you have been or will give AA the opportunity to help you.

Please keep coming back.

Tricia

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russman


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Hello
And welcome  smile

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