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STEP 11

SOUGHT THROUGH PRAYER AND MEDITATION TO IMPROVE MY CONSCIOUS CONTACT WITH GOD, AS I UNDERSTOOD HIM PRAYING ONLY FOR KNOWLEDGE OF HIS WILL AND THE POWER TO CARRY IT OUT


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COURAGE TO CHANGE PAGE 165

I WILL TAKE TIME TO CLEAR MY MIND OF UNNESsary, HURRIED THOUGHTS.THERE SEEMS TO BE LIMITED AMOUNT OF SPACE IN MY MIND UNTIL I DO.WHEN I CLEAR THIS CLUTTER AWAY THE SPACE BECOMES LIMITLESS AND THE GUIDANCE I AM WILLING TO ACCEPT COMES THROUGH.

THE SPIRITUAL EXERCISE SUGGESTED BY THE 11TH STEP IS A POWERFUL FORCE FOR GOOD IN OUR LIVES.LET ME NOT THINK I HAVE NO TIME FOR IT

MY SHARE

WHAT A GIFT THIS STEP IS.I AM ASKED TO TAKE TIME TO PRAY (TALK TO HP) AND MEDITATE (LISTEN TO HP)DAILY.BECAUSE I WAS LIVING IN CHAOS IN THE BEGINNING OF MY DAYS IN A;LANON I HAD DIFFICULTY FINDING TIME TO DO THIS.MY SPONSOR SUGGESTED THAT I COULD PRAY AND MEDIATE AS I TRAVELED TO WORK EACH DAY.INSTEAD OFREADING T HE PAPER, WORRYING ABOUT THE PAST OR FUTURE , BECOMING ANNOYED BY PEOPLE I WAS TRAVELING WITH , I COULD TALK TO GOD INTERNALLY.SAY THE SERENITY PRAYER, TELL HP MY WORRIES AND FEARS AND ASK FOR HELP.I ALSO NOTICED THAT A VERY BIG PART OF THIS STEP PRAYING ONLY FOR KNOWLEDGE OF HIS WILL AND THE POWER TO CARRY IT OUT.MY BIGGEST FEAR FOR YEARS WAS THAT HP WOULD ASK ME TO DO SOMETHING I WOULD FAIL AT.THIS STEP ASSURE ME IF I CARRY OUT HP'S WILL I WILL BE GIVEN THE POWER TO DO THIS.HOW GREAT IS THAT!!!!I WILL HAVEHPS POWERIN MY LIFE TO USE AND WORK AND TO GO FORWARD WITH COURAGE, SERENITY AND WISDOM.I WAS NOT PROMISED THAT I WOULD BE GIVEN HAPPINESS, A MILLION DOLLARS BUT I WOULD BE GIVEN THE POWER TO CARRY OUT HPS WILL.MANY TIMES HPS WILL FOR ME HAS BEEN HARD AND PAINFUL,I WAS GIVENENOUGH WISDOM AND COURAGE TO GO FORWARD .I work this Step each and every day . I ask HP for the courage, wisdom and serenity to live through this day only and trust that I will be lead.

Just a note, my MY HP did not promise a Rose Garden. I have had many a heart break on this Spiritual Journey. Some that sent me into a tail spin. The loss of my precious son to this disease was major. I felt the sadness; the anger, the grief the huge loss and I also felt deep down a peace that surpasses understanding. I did receive the power to face this very difficult loss with HPs help I will always miss and love my child and have a deep sadness at his loss however I also am oh so grateful that this beautiful gift from HP, was in my life for over 40 years and I can recall the many joys and love we shared.

I love this Step

THANKS FOR LETTING ME SHARE

 

STEP 11 QUESTIONS

1.What other activities help you relax and get in touch with yourself?

2. The next time you get stressed, instead of pushing harder, you might want to walk away from what you are doing and find a way to get quiet and centered. If you are at work, you may want to retreat into a private area-your office, if you have one, or even a bathroom will do. Breathe deeply, then let go of your thoughts, worries, and chaos. Allow peace and healing to enter your body. Stay with it as long as you can or as long as you need to.

3 HAVE YOU BEGUN THE DAILY PRACTICE OF PRAYER AND MEDITATION?

 

 



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Betty


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smile Thanks Betty... 

Step 11 has been a journey for me- in itself... ...I used to say- each time I tried to meditate I would simply fall asleep. This was not because I was lazy, or anything. I was exhausted.

Partly this was my employment- working as a field worker. I had to compete with migrant workers and worked myself to a standstill. But also I had to ask myself why this was so. Why I was unable to take care of my own needs.

For a year or two I explored the ideas around C-PTSD. I was not diagnosed with his. Outwardly I might have looked all right. But inside i had suicidal thoughts- a death wish. I did not think my communication was any good. I always felt lonely and isolated. Very much so.

I could always get to meetings; I was always very dutiful with this.

But I was still getting nowhere. The change came when I got sleep apnea. This condition often happens for people who are overweight. But I had the form common with people who had anxiety.

I don't believe I had an issue with anxiety- I had gone far beyond that point- when I was a kid. It was my normal.

I always had a heap of pain from migraine- and this interfered with meditation. Not a good topic to have to focus on.

However I realised that my breathing was holding me back. I got enough help to go on with. For a start I coughed up lots sandlots of gunk for 6 or 8 weeks. But slowly over time mu breathing became more normal. Fact was that I was panic breathing. I had never really learned to breathe in a normal way.

I was able to discharge myself from the people who were addressing the sleep apnea.

My sleeping began to improve. And I began to think clearly... there are extra things that happened. I had hearing restored in my left ear. I could not here properly... could not pick up the nuance and timbre of people's voices. And I could not communicate properly. I believe that my hearing was caused by a blocked ear- from having glue ear as a kid. it was always fixable.

If y'all are still reading this Betty- you will realise that i always kept up contact with Alanon, where ever I was. This was always the base note in my tune- always there- a constant- something I could trust.

I still have some way to go... ...and maybe I always shall...

but today I can stay awake most days. I can think and dream out loud.

And now I can actually meditate- pushing out all the old stored trauma, that made my body a kind of foreign body for me- now much more familiar...

thanks for the share,

DavidG.

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Hi David thanks for sharing your thoughts

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