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I think- in the first few years, most people speak to the topic. {if at all sometimes.}

And sometimes need to speak and share a lot. A good time to start scouting around for a sponsor!  ...

But sometimes, me, at meetings- if there is something I need to say, or even prompted my my higher power-

I might just speak about what's on top. A mark and a measure of confidence.

It's Friday night here. Freezing cold here- since it is winter in NZ.

Beside me I have a copy of "How Alanon Works". 

I have this book here as a treat- for the end of the day- it is the section where Lois shares pp135-142.

About three years ago I began to think. I used the shortest slogan in the book- "Think". 

I knew that there and then that I was on the right track.

I knew too that It was going to take time to get all my affairs in order. That I had to be very patient.

I lived in a funk or a fog a lot of the time. Looking back I realise that I was subject to panic attacks.

Much of my life seemed to be one panic attack- back to back.

So reading Lois's story was a treat and a reward tonight. After having a hot shower- and preparing for the evening.

There is a set of steps there- with Lois's response to each one.

I know the steps can sometimes seem dense and dull. It does depend on the mood, if not the readiness.

Being in this special group here, had helped me enormously.

The range of experience and the rang of ability is awesome.

This group is a great credit to Alanon and to each member.

There is a fair bit of dept to the steps, and I plan to go over them, one by one- and savour the words of a true servant of God.

 Thanks.